babydyke1989

This story is pure fiction. Tell me what you think please.

Chapter One

New Life

I woke up that morning to the sound of rolling thunder in the distance. Let me introduce myself, I am Allie, I am 25 and today started a whole new chapter in my life. My girlfriend of five years passed on from cancer 3 years ago. I went into a stress center for grief management and I have been going there now for almost a year. Her name was Kristy, I really miss her a lot some days.
I got up, unwillingly, out of bed and fixed some coffee and fed the kitten I spotted alongside the road about three months ago. I had six hours until therapy. My phone rang and it was my sister, Stacy 22. She wanted to know if I wanted to go shopping with her. I accepted.
We had a lot to catch up on. I got a shower and got dressed. Then I went down and waited for her to show up. About half an hour later we were at the mall.

“so sis, how have you been?” Stacy asked me.

“I’ve been better.” I answered

“Things will get better for ya sis I promise.” she said

“I know.”

We spent two hours at the mall and one out for dinner and then she dropped me back off at my place. I thanked her for a good time and went inside. I played The Sims until time for therapy.
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Therapy went well. A girl named jess asked me to dinner though. We aren’t supposed to have outside relationships, but I accepted anyways. I found out she is 23 and a lesbian just like me. We talked about things like politics, gay marriage and such. We laughed a lot. We talked a lot about our player histories.
Yes, I was a player, until I met Kristy. Jess and I were fast friends, she lost her partner the same way I did. Jess and I decided on a movie after dinner. During the movie we were very touchy feely. After the movie she followed me home. We talked for awhile outside when she leaned in and kissed me. I pushed her away.

“Sorry.”

“It’s alright, but I think you should go.” she nodded.
After she left I went to bed. We went to therapy the next day and barely kept eye contact. I decided I didn’t want it to be that way, so I went to talk to her.

“Jess, lets not avoid each other k?”

She said, “ alright.”

We went on as before, hanging out after therapy and she came to my apartment one day. While she was there I got a letter from someone with the last name as mine who I had never heard of before. I opened it to find a letter dated back 70 years or so. It told of incest in my family, stuff I didn’t want to believe. I called my grandma about it and she confirmed it, I started crying on the phone as I hung up, jess came over to give me a hug.
I knew I had to call my siblings about it. So I got back on the phone and called them to let them know, I got the same reaction from them, we all agreed to go to a Three Doors Down concert this Saturday to meet up. Today was Thursday so of course the next two days drug out. Finally, Saturday came and I picked jess up and we headed to the concert. I found my siblings and we sat next to them.
Stacy said she couldn’t believe the letter I got. I couldn’t believe it either. Brad was disgusted right along with the rest of us. The night ended good amazingly, jess and I cuddled a good portion of the night, which I knew wasn’t a good idea but it felt right at the moment.

The grass blows in the wind
My mind travels back in time
To holding hands with you
On the steps, in the car
Anywhere
It just felt right with you by my side

The trees sway
Back and forth
In the evening breeze
Like my mind over you
As I try to say
Just what you mean to me
You lean in to kiss me
But I pull away

Your eyes ask why
I wish I knew
Please don’t cry
You mean the world to me
But what do i mean to you?

Do you think they exist?

The semantic point we should deal with is “if the universe is “all existing things regarded as a whole” then isn’t it true by definition that there is only one.” What do you think?

BBC claims all I am going to blog to be true:

Scientists now believe there may be an infinite number of parallel universes and we just happen to live in one of them. It all started when the Superstring theory, hyperspace and dark matter made physicists realize that three dimensions to describe the universe may not be enough. That there may be eleven dimensions. Crazy right? What would you think or do if it was true? Now imagine what would happen if two dimensions crossed.

Neil Turok from Cambridge, Burt Ovrut from the University of Pennsylvania and Paul Steinhardt from Princeton believe that this has already happened. It happended to create our universe otherwise known as the big bang theory. Of course the question is now could it happen again? What are your opinions on this?

I stayed home in our new apartment alone for a few hours today, it was fun. Boring but fun.

Isn’t it interesting how we are all connected in some, way shape or form? Like i just learned that i am related to almost all of my friends by marriage and by blood…its freaky. And my grandma says its because everything is related back to adam and eve, im not a religious person but this could be. Buddhism says that we are all interconnected as well through earth. All religions have a say in this.

Now to homosexual relationships and religion, christianity says its wrong, catholicism says it doesn’t exist, buddhism thinks sexuality is whatever, you fall for whoever you fall for. What is your personal opinion on homosexuality? My opinion, obviously because im a lesbian, is that its ok, i am a very open minded person.

Who believes that sexuality is whatever, you fall for who you fall for when you fall for them?

What is everybody’s opinion on teacher student relationships?

If you think its wrong why do you think its wrong? and what if your 18 when it happens?

What about if you are 18 and have a relationship with someone under 18, do you think thats wrong?

What’s wrong with it? besides the bible says its wrong, personally what’s wrong with it. You fall in love with whoever you fall in love with. Men should be allowed to get married same goes for women, if anybody disagrees let me know why please.

Gay people should be allowed to have children as well, they are just as fit to raise children as straight people. What people do in their own homes is their business and other people should mind their own business, in my opinion the government shouldnt have a say marriage at all. Or anything like that.

Gay life is hard enough without being told they can’t marry the one they love and want to spend the rest of their lives with. My friend told me that people don’t normally fall for just guys or just girls they fall for a personality despite sex.

So why is gay marriage not legal? i want to know.

What happens when you die?

Some people believe you go to either heaven or hell.

Or some people believe you are reincarnated or become a part of the earth.

What do you think happens?

We just started talking
But I can feel we’ve started something amazing
Keep on talkin to me
I enjoy hearing what you have to say
If you’d give me a chance
I could show you something real

I won’t lie
Or make you cry
That’s not my style
You have a beautiful smile
I’m gonna do what I can to keep it on your face
I’m gonna show you that your place in my life
Is right by my side

I’ve made some mistakes
That I know I’m still paying for
I just want you to know
That I won’t make
Those same mistakes again
As long as you are by my side
With each step
I’ll hold your hand
There’s no need to be afraid

NKOTB was formed in the early 80s and soon became the true example of the pop boy band. They assembled in 1984 in Boston, Jordan and Jonathon Knight, Joey Mcintyre, Donnie Walhberg, and Danny Wood. They released seven albums, their latest in 2008 with amazing new songs with duets with today’s big stars. Their reunion tour started September 18,2008.

Band members after disbanding and before getting back together:

Jonathon Knight left the entertainment business to go into real estate.

Jordan Knight came out with an album in 1999 and 2004-2006.

Joey Mcintyre went into movies and tv shows while still singing. His latest album was released in 2006.

Danny wood started a Boston based record label. And for the most part stayed out of the spotlight.

Donnie Walhberg followed the steps of brother Mark Walbergh and got into movies.

When I say
I won’t hurt you
I mean I won’t hurt you
No lies, cheating or blackmail
Promise

When I say
I love you
I mean I love you
Now and Forever
Until the end of time
Promise

When I say
I’ll protect you
I mean I’ll protect you
From every battle
Life throws at us
Promise

When I say
Forever
I mean forever
From now until
The day we die
I love you
Promise

My life so far at almost 19 has been one hell of a journey. I have been back and forth on my sexuality for years. I am now going labelless, i like who i like when i like them. My friends and family are awesomely supportive of this decision. I am proud of myself for being able to make the decision.

Now i have already been hospitalized for a nervous breakdown. I was raped when i was 8, lied about how much it hurt me mentally so i wouldn’t have to talk about it, and it got me where i am today, questioning EVERYTHING about life. Who knows maybe i was gonna do that anyways, who doesnt right?

Music is my passion, i play the drums and guitar. I listen to everything that sounds good to me. I suggest bands for people to listen to. Like I’m Not In Love by BBmak is an amazing song and you all should listen to it. My friends think i am a really talented writer when i put my mind to it which is what i am doing now.

I love scary movies, supernatural more than anything, but scary movies like poltergeist which i know some people don’t think is scary ive seen it so many times i dont think its scary anymore. I love the movie The Haunting of Molly Hartley it was really good. Very freaky.

My friends are my life and second family, they mean everything to me. One of my best guy friends Preston has been one of the most supportive people in my life and i thank him for being there. Along with all of my other buddies. I love you guys!

I think this is all for now.